As a child, I liked games that were hard.
Marbles and Pogs in the schoolyard,
till I installed a new videocard in
my computer and lost myself.
Found a copy of the first Diablo game
on some store shelf and discovered
a place that needed me.
(Such an odd feeling)
I could be someone else in a fantasy
world where I only got stronger the
better and longer I played, always
saved the day, always
got the girl.
I was a hero.
(Such an odd feeling)
But games, they aren't real, and my
parents would say that I'd feel my
life slipping away as I sat there
in front of a screen every day
and night, wind up a failure.
I've always known they were right
but there's this odd freedom I
find in fighting hordes of
goblins and evil
planar beings.
As if you're worth something when a beaming
NPC gives you a quest reward, like you
can really carve a place for yourself
in that world with nothing but your
will and a sword, and you're
actually appreciated.
(Such an odd feeling)
So gaming's my hobby, my pass-time, takes
up each spare dime I've got, because it
distracts and entertains me a lot more
than everything else.
Helps me forget myself and the way that I
cant connect to others like I do with
a mere click of the mouse when I
log on and check my
friends-list.
Ingame, those on it are happy to see me online, say
I've been missed, and always have the time to
tell me so, ask me to go on an epic quest or
wrest an item of power from some glowering
demon in a burning ruined tower.
Even when its a dungeon-run I've already done
it's a hell of a lot more fun than logging
off and seeing everyone else is happy.
(Such an odd feeling)
So what do you expect me to do when it's like
the virtual world holds more appeal and
feels more real than "Fighting
the good fight" and "Doing
something with my life".
It seems so right despite how my family would
tell me I'm wasting my time sitting in front
of "Those Stupid Games" but ultimately
it's all the same because I see that
none of this really matters.
They're lost in their lives while I'm
replacing my character's tattered
armor with new steel, and what's
real to them isn't that
consequential.
Your new job is like my new level, it doesn't
really count, so you've got a new car,
check out my epic mount, this shit's
all the same, your life, my game,
we're all gonna die eventually.
(Such an odd feeling)
Our mortality makes everything pointless.
We're all playing in Hardcore Mode, one
life is all you get, and when you die,
nothing really changes, the game
won't reset, so the fact that
this makes me happy is all
that means anything.
I've got no regrets.
Real Life's so miserable, with its always
yearning for more, trying to get a hold
of some kind of meaning, push your
way through the trapdoor in this
glass ceiling over our heads.
For this, you break your hearts?
You endure the demeaning?
You drown in roaring
seas of debt?
I don't need or want the goals you've set
for me, they're just dust and air, and
I see the hypocrisy of you standing
there telling me how I'm
"Wasting my time".
In the end, its mine to waste as I please.
So give me a working computer,
a solid connection, and
watch as I ease myself
into worlds you've
never known and
find freedom.
Comments
Hehe, nice
I love poetry but honestly, this would have been the last place I would have expected it, haha
Haha this was cool, nice job, hoping to see some more.
EDIT: Idea! why not try narate this on a youtube video XD